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Forcing Myself Together

January 25th, 2012 at 08:42 am

I keep telling myself life goes on and I have to go with it. And that I can't let the finances slide just because I'm stuck in this feeling of unreality. So I balanced the checkbook. I have $34 left until Friday, which is payday. I made it without spending even half of the money that I saved for the four weeks no paycheck period.

I emptied my coin purse into the coin jar. It had $1.54. I haven't done too much shopping lately, first because of being snowed in for a week and then just being generally lethargic and not wanting to go out anymore than necessary.

The gas tank on the van is still almost full and we've got what we need in groceries to get through the week. And part of next week because I bought a lot of oranges and apples and carrots and celery. I did not like going down to empty on my produce during the snow. I may have canned pineapple and pears, but believe me, there is only so much of that you can take.

There are no bills coming due until the first of the month and those are on autopay, so I don't have to worry about anything until the 3rd. That gives me a bit more time of walking around in this fog without worrying I'm going to miss paying something.

DH will be home in another week and that will help me settle and start feeling normal again.

4 Responses to “Forcing Myself Together”

  1. mamasita Says:

    You've done a great job organizing your finances, so I think you're right, you can take some time to just grieve.

  2. My English Castle Says:

    Routine probably helps you feel a bit more normal. Or at least less awful. Thinking of you--

  3. EarlyRetirementJoy Says:

    Lucky Robin, my thoughts will continue to be with you in the days ahead.

  4. Mary Ann Says:

    Still thinking of you in your recent loss. Just wanted to let you know life will slowly start to look a little brighter with each new day. I've lost both of my parents and truly it will get better. Try to think on the good memories you have to help you through..may God hold you close and wipe the tears away.

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