I haven't posted much this month because truthfully everything sucks and I am so tired of things being so negative every time I do post. I am weepy all the time lately and I am not a weepy person. I feel like we're never going to get out of this situation where bad things happen one after the other after the other and we are given no time whatsoever to get our heads above water and breathe. I feel like I'm drowning and what's worse, I have no desire to keep fighting the current.
This month alone has just shattered me. First Gina dies, then we have to rehome George. Then we find out the news about FIL having six months to live because of the cancer spreading so aggressively. Then we get a visit by the humane society because someone called in an anonymous report about the living conditions of our rabbits. Nobody knows about our rabbits outside of family and two girls that used to be friends with my daughter but have been cyberbullying her for about two years now.
It came to nothing, because the woman who came back to see them said she'd never seen rabbits in such good condition. Everyone had food, water, bedding, and one fan per cage (rabbits don't do well in heat above 75 degrees) in an indoor shed.
Then she asked about our turkeys and I said we didn't have any turkeys, they were long gone. She said the person who called in specifically mentioned the turkeys, so they had no clue that we no longer had turkeys. Everyone who lives around us knew the turkeys were gone.
I asked who had called it in and she said the woman requested to be anonymous. I asked if it was a neighbor and she said no. Then I told her about the girls that have been harassing my daughter (one's a vegan but the militant kind) and she said she'd be sure to note that in her report. Apparently this happens all the time with petty people calling stuff in to try to get people they don't like in trouble. I did later find some FB evidence of gloating so my suspicions are likely correct on who did it.
Then we had to put Kalia down. She broke something in her back when the Med-Evac buzzed too low over the houses again. This is the third or fourth rabbit we've lost because of that stupid helicopter not following the flight height rules when it takes off. It almost hit the neighbor's ham operator antennae a few days ago. The loud noise and the shaking of the building just panics them sometimes. Sometimes we can save them, but she had lost control over her bladder and bowels and it was clear it wasn't just a leg injury, but a back injury, too.
Kalia was a special rabbit to us. She was the first one we had to dropper feed and so we spent a lot of time with her and she was a particular favorite. That one devastated my husband, but that was coming on top of the news about his dad so it all played together.
My daughter had yet another ER visit this month just when we'd finally gotten the last ones paid for and thought we'd be able to relax again. At least $700 will go on her deductible then who knows?
DH had to get a crown and had to pay $650 up front. Then if that wasn't all enough, my c-pap machine quit working. It was 2 months before the five year mark when I could qualify for a new machine, but they were able to get the insurance to agree to get me a new machine now. But it is a $600 machine and I still have $480 left on the deductible so I'll have to pay that up front as well. I can't go without one though. Right now I am using a loaner, but will get the new machine on Monday.
We still don't know whether or not DH will have a job after October and if he doesn't I don't think he will qualify for unemployment only having worked six months since he used up all his benefits. I don't know if my sanity can take another lay-off. I really don't.
I feel like everything is out to get us. I don't know how we are going to get through all this crap. If we had debt right now I think I'd have totally lost it. As it is, I'm ready to just give up, crawl into a hole, and never come out again. How do I fight that when nothing is going right? How do I force myself to stay on top of it all when I just don't care anymore to try?
I've lost my motivation. I guess I just need some encouragement right now.
Misery
August 26th, 2017 at 10:00 pm
August 26th, 2017 at 10:54 pm 1503784497
I've stopped posting too. Just when I think it's going better we get whammied with $800 hot water heaters or a delay with FAFSA for my daughter in college.
Hope it gets better.
August 26th, 2017 at 11:01 pm 1503784881
Know that we all love you here, Lucky Robin.
August 26th, 2017 at 11:36 pm 1503787009
I have a similar problem here with helicopters flying so low they cause my windows to rattle. If you know which airport they're flying from, you can call there and lodge a complaint. There may be even be a special phone line for complaints. There is one for Westchester County Airport, for instance.
About the unemployment, your husband could very well qualify. Did you read my post about the same matter? I worked just 5 weeks on a contract job in May/June and that qualified me for another 6 months of benefits. I truly was surprised.
August 27th, 2017 at 12:12 am 1503789149
You've certainly had more than your fair share of rotten luck lately. I'm sorry. I hope things will turn around for you and yours soon.
August 27th, 2017 at 12:15 am 1503789328
And sorry to hear your daughter was in the ER!
August 27th, 2017 at 12:27 am 1503790076
It's very difficult to let go of other, older issues to cope with the new problems as they arise but there is nothing that will change for Gina, George, Kalia; SPCA representative confirms your great care. Prayers for your family, so sad illness has overtaken FIL. DH's situation will play out, you will meet it with your best effort...because that is what you do. This is a safe place to express your frustration, how can we help?
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August 27th, 2017 at 02:41 pm 1503841271
Gosh, it sure is galling about the bullying and that spilling over into real government complaints. I cannot even believe the lengths some people go to just to cause trouble and be cruel to others.
August 27th, 2017 at 08:10 pm 1503861043
My heart is going out to you. You have had some tough times. Hopefully things will look up. As far as the visit, it is really a validation that you are doing what is right for your rabbits -- that is a good thing. As far as the turkeys, well, the fact you no longer have them should have told the person investigating how malicious the person or persons is/are and how unfounded. You are the champion of this little incident. I'm sorry they are bullying your family.
Prayers for you and your family.
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